Well, so that is that. Now we must dismantle the tree,
Putting the decorations back into their cardboard boxes --
Some have got broken -- and carrying them up to the attic.
The holly and the mistletoe must be taken down and burnt,
And the children got ready for school. There are enough
Left-overs to do, warmed-up, for the rest of the week --
Not that we have much appetite, having drunk such a lot,
Stayed up so late, attempted -- quite unsuccessfully --
To love all of our relatives, and in general
Grossly overestimated our powers. Once again
As in previous years we have seen the actual Vision and failed
To do more than entertain it as an agreeable
Possibility, once again we have sent Him away,
Begging though to remain His disobedient servant,
The promising child who cannot keep His word for long.
The Christmas Feast is already a fading memory,
And already the mind begins to be vaguely aware
Of an unpleasant whiff of apprehension at the thought
Of Lent and Good Friday which cannot, after all, now
Be very far off. But, for the time being, here we all are,
Back in the moderate Aristotelian city
Of darning and the Eight-Fifteen, where Euclid's geometry
And Newton's mechanics would account for our experience,
And the kitchen table exists because I scrub it.
It seems to have shrunk during the holidays. The streets
Are much narrower than we remembered; we had forgotten
The office was as depressing as this. To those who have seen
The Child, however dimly, however incredulously,
The Time Being is, in a sense, the most trying time of all.
For the innocent children who whispered so excitedly
Outside the locked door where they knew the presents to be
Grew up when it opened. Now, recollecting that moment
We can repress the joy, but the guilt remains conscious;
Remembering the stable where for once in our lives
Everything became a You and nothing was an It.
And craving the sensation but ignoring the cause,
We look round for something, no matter what, to inhibit
Our self-reflection, and the obvious thing for that purpose
Would be some great suffering. So, once we have met the Son,
We are tempted ever after to pray to the Father;
"Lead us into temptation and evil for our sake."
They will come, all right, don't worry; probably in a form
That we do not expect, and certainly with a force
More dreadful than we can imagine. In the meantime
There are bills to be paid, machines to keep in repair,
Irregular verbs to learn, the Time Being to redeem
From insignificance. The happy morning is over,
The night of agony still to come; the time is noon:
When the Spirit must practice his scales of rejoicing
Without even a hostile audience, and the Soul endure
A silence that is neither for nor against her faith
That God's Will will be done, That, in spite of her prayers,
God will cheat no one, not even the world of its triumph.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Every year, sometime around this time, I re-read W.H. Auden's "For the Time Being." Written in 1942 with the world at war, this poem captures something incredible and true about the Christmas feast we just celebrated. It is not so hard, surrounded by mangers and Christmas cheer, to believe in the reality of the Incarnation. But somehow, as we pack up the decorations and go on with our lives, it gets a little harder to remember and believe. Here's Auden's poem (actually, it's part of a larger poem, The Christmas Oratorio, but I couldn't find a link to the whole thing, but I own the book):
These in-between times are strange. Yet whether our audience seems hostile or non-existent, we must pay the bills, keep the machines in repair, learn the irregular verbs. And more important than any of that, we must hope that God (not us!) has already redeemed the time being from its insignificance. We have to hold onto faith that God's Will will in fact be done. Moreover, today at least, I feel bold enough to hope that God might even work in us and through us to redeem the time being from its insignificance. Pass the irregular verbs.
Posted by Dana L. Dillon at 3:01 PM
Well, I'm back. I'm back in Rome, and I'm back on this blog
I just looked at my last post, and I guess that you could say I let the homesickness--and some other negative factors--win a bit last semester. I'm determined not to do that again.
I'm sure I won't post every day, but I'll do a lot better. In fact, check back tomorrow. I promise a good post, especially if you like poetry.
Posted by Dana L. Dillon at 2:58 PM